I've been holding onto this picture for nearly a week trying to decide what to say & how I want to say it.
I'm in a really good place right now. I feel extremely grateful for my life. I have the most wonderful, supportive husband. I've created a successful business helping other women find themselves. I'm balanced & finding significant happiness in the smallest of things, most of which aren't things btw. I'm strong. I'm deep down happy. I feel great, internally, mind & body & I feel like my outside actually matches my inside. I'm happy & content with my body & I love myself enough to not only believe it, but to also say it out loud. That's actually quite a substantial statement considering how much I've struggled and how far I've come.
So, after careful reflection, the picture is less about the actual photo and more about what I see and how it makes me feel. For the first time in a long time, I didn't pick myself apart. I saw happiness & my silly personality. I saw positivity, energy & zest for life. I saw confidence, comfort & love for my body. I saw my smile which is kinda hard to miss. I saw very strong legs, legs which I've always considered one of my biggest trouble areas & I also saw a strong woman completely comfortable in her own skin. For the first time, probably in my life, I'm not striving for any particular body goal, that's to say, I'm not looking to get smaller, skinnier, leaner, add muscle, diet down, etc. I'm in a maintenance phase & enjoying the feeling of strong without a particular body goal in mind.
My point is growth comes in many forms, it gets recognized in different ways and at different times in life. Learn to take where you are and decide what you can learn from it instead of dwelling on the past or fretting over the future. We become stronger through every struggle we go through. Time does not wait & is non-refundable. Spend it wisely learning who you are, what you love, want & need then go after it. Don't waste time worrying about sizes, deadlines or numbers on the scale & instead just focus on growing as a person. The more we grow, the more we learn. Everything will happen for you as it is suppose to, all of a sudden & you'll be thankful you didn't give up.
Believe that one day you will wake up in a state of peaceful, balanced bliss & acceptance in both mind and body, work on getting there and you will find it.
Until next time,